My temp dip

The husband and I went to Fayetteville this weekend to watch our beloved Arkansas Razorbacks play the Georgia Bulldogs. It was a truly great weekend, filled with good food, a few drinks and a lot of quality time with my husband. Unfortunately we lost the football game, which sucked, but it didnt ruin our weekend. And neither did the temp drop I had on Sunday at 10DPO. Although when I saw it I BAWLED my eyes out. I mean the floodgates opened up and I just couldnt stop. I just really thought this was the month, and who knows, my period hasnt shown up yet (although I an confident it will). But the disappointment I am feeling right now is a lot more than I thought it was going to be. I mean, we had perfectly timed babymaking sex. But I have to move forward. It's in God's time, not mine.

2WW

So here I am in the 2ww. 6dpo. Too early to be pregnant, but way past being able to do anything about it. It's annoying but I definitely think it is better than waiting to O. The pressure of making sure we have good timing can really get to me. My hopes are so high this cycle because of said good timing. Which makes me so scared for next week. Hope has made me scared. Which sounds weird, I know. Hope should make you happy and excited right? But I am just so damn scared that it didnt happen because I know how crushed I am going to be. So my emotions are like a roller coaster, really. One minute I am happy and hopeful, and the next minute it is that same hope that makes my stomach turn into knots because I know that good timing doesnt mean anything. Not really. So I will wait until this weekend to test. Even then it will probably be too early to tell, but I know I will not ne able to not test.

Temp Spike!

I had a temp spike this morning. I'm hoping I have ovulated already. If so, we had some really good timing and I have my hopes WAY up for this cycle. I hope I'm not disappointed!!

+ OPK!!

When I went home for lunch today I took my normal midday OPK, and....wait for it....that's right, it was positive!! I had no idea that I would be this excited about it!! It was my first positive and I can't wait for the baby makin' tonight! The way I was running and jumping around my house, you would have thought I had gotten a positive on a pregnancy test!! Cross your fingers for me!!!!!

Faint OPK line

So I just saw a second line on the OPK for the first time. It was faint, so not a positive, but here's hoping a get a + really soon!!!

Stupid OPK

So I started using OPK's this cycle. They are driving me crazy. And I am already pretty crazy!! I absolutely CANNOT hold my pee for 4 hours. I barely make it to 3. So my day goes like this. Make sure to pee right before 9am as well as chug a diet coke, because you're not supposed to have anything to drink either. About 10am I have to pee SO bad, due to said diet coke chugging. But I still have 2 more hours to go before I can pee. Thus far, all tests have come back negative, which is always dissapointing. After the noon OPK, I go home eat luch and have another drink, and be sure to pee again, because I have to start the process all over for the second OPK of the day. This having to pee ALL OF THE TIME is super annoying. I better get a + soon!

Reflections on CD1

Reasons why CD1 doesn't suck:

1. The 2WW is over. It is torture for me.

2. I can have sushi.

3. Beer. Wine. Margaritas.

4. I might get another tattoo in the next couple of weeks.

5. SEC football starts in less than 2 weeks and I can tailgate with some beer.

6. My new attitude towards TTC. Aggressive and optimistic.

7. I get to "try" with my husband all over again :)

AF is here

So AF showed up yesterday. Around 4 days earlier than normal. I was more upset than I thought I was going to be. But onward and upward. I am going to take a much more aggressive approach this cycle. I am going to drink green tea to maximize my CM, drink pomegranite juice to thicken my lining, and I just order OPK's from early-pregnancy-test.com. It WILL happen this month. :)

So I told my BFF we were TTC

But she is the only one. She has a four month old daughter, who also happens to be my goddaughter, and she CANNOT WAIT for me to be pregnant. She wants me to have a baby yesterday, I think! Well I was just on the phone with her and she asked if we had been trying and when am I going to take a test and to call her as soon as I'm pregnant. I am so happy that she is excited for me, but I am not looking forward to telling her if it doesn't happen this month. Her pregnancy was unplanned, and I'm fairly certain that she doesn't really understand that there is only a 20% chance of pregnancy each month. Now she is a super supportive friend that only want the best for me, I just hope I don't regret telling anyone.

Ebarrassing moment

So last night my husband and I were at the law library (our internet at home wasn't working) and I was using my laptop. Well I decided to go to early-pregnancy-tests.com to check out the ovulation predictor kits, just in case I'm not KU this cycle. So there I was, in the super quite law school library, when my computer absolutely SCREAMS "Welcome to early-pregnancy-tests.com!" I could have died right then and there. There are a few people at the Bowen School of Law that now know what's going on in my bedroom.....Oh well!

Is it wrong..

...that I don't understand naming someone "Jr." And I don't necessarily mean you call them junior. I just mean, Robert Smith, Jr. Now I love my husband and I love his name, but I don't want two people in the same house with the same name. If we have a son, he will not share a name with his father. It just seems a little weird to me. Now having said that, I know that it has been done forever and ever and ever and blah, blah, blah, blah. I'm just saying that I don't get it. Sorry if that offends.

Someone stop me

It's like someone is putting a gun to my head, begging me to POAS. I need a valium to get through the 2WW! I almost caved on my lunch break. At 7dpo. Knowing full well that it will not show up as a positive this early. Let the madness begin.

Not for sure when I ovulated....

But I think I am either 6 or 7 days past ovulation. It's probably 6. So I am probably not even pregnant yet, if I'm going to be this cycle. I am hoping to hold out until 13DPO. Not sure if I will be able to make it. And I'm still looking for something to occupy my mind until then. Unfortunately, I have not found it yet.

Post Number 1

So I deleted my last blog and have decided to begin anew. Since my husband and I are currently entering a new phase in our lives, it seemed appropriate. I am currently in the 2 Week Wait of our first cycle TTC, although I have been charting for quite some time. I hope to use this blog to get out all of my frustrations of the TTC journey, and hopefully, continue on for all of the glorious adventures of pregnancy. My first order of business during this 2ww is to find a hobby to distract me from the fact that I can't test for another wekek. It is about to drive me absolutely INSANE. And I know that this is just the beginning of what could be many 2wws, but patience has never been my thing. And I won't be too crushed if it doesn't happen this month; I think I have prepared myself that it can take a while. But it's the 2ww that I cant handle. I would rather just know that it didn't work so that we can start again, you know? And I am pretty sure that I am already driving my husband insane with my impatience. Poor guy.